Hobbies

While lying in my bed, ALL DAY, I had a lot to think about.
One of the things that I spent a lot of thinking time on, was the fact that I have no hobbies. I have no passions. I have nothing that is... Danielle.
Who/what can I blame for this? Let's start with the parent people. Or should I start with church? Am I to blame as well?

I was forced to play the piano at the age of 6, and I hated it (didn't know what was good for me...). Played for 11 years… ELEVEN! And I have nothing to show for it, except for the certificates that say I’ve completed 5 grades in both practical and theory. Put me to sit in front of a piano with a score and you’d probably have to give me a few weeks before you come back to me to hear me play it... do it any justice. Wukless! There’s a piano sitting down in my dining room that hasn’t been tuned in years. Just the other day tho, I decided that I want to play… I actually want to! Not being forced or coerced, nope, doing it willingly, because I see it can be an asset. I can make money with this!! So at the moment, I’m re-learning m scales and playing old pieces that I once did in exams.

Next up, swimming. This is probably the closest thing I have to a hobby. It’s something I’ve enjoyed for years, and if I feel stressed, it’s the perfect reliever for me. I started swimming when I was about 6 (about the same time we started piano) with Aunty Jackie. Then at St. Hugh’s, I was on the swim team for 2nd and 3rd form… got tired of it after that (swim team that is). I swim nowadays when I feel like it, or as an excuse to get out the house. But it’s my intention to really get into a swimming routine, it’s the only exercise I can do, since I totally messed my back up… doctor says.

Well, I love to sleep… ongoing practice…

A more recent additions to my list of things I enjoy doing, is playing the drums. Sometimes tho, I feel like I not making any progress and get frustrated… too easily… much to Rory’s displeasure. But I will stick this one out!

I guess there are other things that I could have made better. Like singing, I love it but don’t do it often, anymore. Main reason, at church, they feel like the last minute thing goin cut it… but I put my foot down, and I guess they finally got the point. Do not come to me the day before or 2 days before you want me to sing supm and expect me to be happy and willing to do it. NAH!! New rule…gimme a weeks notice, PLEASE! I mean they used to call me every week to sing, and I’d do it, but then everybody started overdoing and taking advantage of it. NO!

Ok, this getting long, so let’s go to the possible reasons for me not having a proper hobby. The parents barely give me enough room to develop anything that I’d be interested in. Take pan for example, they simply don’t support it… or me. *sigh*
Another factor is church, Sabbath. Most activities that I had interest in when I was younger had class/training on Saturdays… so that just wasn’t gonna happen.

But one of the biggest limiting forces is me. Nowadays, I’m just lazy. I’m quite content chilling with my friends and kicking it, watching tv or just… chilling. So I dint drive myself to do anything that would take any significant amount of energy.
I used to blame my mother for me being fat, or having my belly. Because we were never really involved in any physical activities, like dancing (God forbid the church people know), or track, tennis, badminton … you get where I’m going.
But I can’t blame her anymore, even if I could before. I have the power to go play any sport I want to now. I guess I can blame them for not encouraging the “interest development” earlier, when I was younger.

So whats the plan? Develop a hobby… duh… not sure what quite yet. I want to do everything. No narrowing down just yet. Swimming definitely, drums… yup. PIANO – I am determined!
Other interests developing – art (drawing, painting), photography… long list. Considering going to art school. But considering the current monetary constraints… not right now.