Aurora

The outpouring...

Monday, August 28, 2006

Still at JMMB

JMMB does'nt want to let me go!!!!!! No complaining here... more money :D

The current plan is to be here for another 2 weeks. But Leo (boss) may push to have it extended. So I may be here part time. FUN FUN... MONEY MONEY!!

School and work... will it work out?? *-)

Thursday, August 24, 2006

NDTC Annual Season of Dance 2006

Well, I went to the show last week, and I for got to blog about it.

It was a good show. Some real creativity was demonstrated in the choreography. I really liked two of the dances, Variations of Ska and Barre supm supm... will edit later.
I was kinda disappointed about the dance choreographed by Rexxi... Katrina. I guess, just from the name, I had higher expectations. I expected to picture/experience what the people experienced. Feel/sense the pain and the suffering, but there was little that held me. Slightly disappointed.

Another thing that i didn't really like was that they had fewer dances, suites, that were just longer than usual. It took away from the variety of the show i guess.
The barre one tho... thumbs up.

Big up to Tovah-Marie Bembridge,Peta-Gay Pryce and all the other NDTC Dancers. Still a good job.

Monday, August 21, 2006

Sleep

Maybe the last thing I should be writing about, considering I just ate, and for those of you that know me, know what that means...

I have a problem (Hi!! we just focusing on this one now! Calm down). SLEEP. I love it. It fixes almost anything for me. If I'm miserable, if I feel sick, if I have cramps, if I just done eat (problem area), etc... There are some stuff that it just can't help tho, I'll refrain from mentioning these :P

Yes, so I just ate breakfast, and I'm bucking in front of my computer. Not cute. I'm out in the open. So here I am trying to keep myself awake.
This may prove to be quite a blog-filled day... :D

Best Friends... or not

I've been thinking (and yes it hurt!) about the "best friends" I've had in my life. There is one that has been there from day one and is still there, no matter how I mess up. There is another, who I couldn't get along with when we were younger, but became almost inseparable couple years ago. There is one that is completely, well, relatively new, one who many of us know, one of the persons helping to hold the scattered remains of my sanity in place. He is the only one here, at home, close to me at the moment. All the others decided to go to college abroad, away from me, like that was a smart thing to do.

Anyway, why blog about them? This really isn't about them. This is about the "long lost best friends". The ones from high school. Those friends that were always there and we were referred to as "bench and batty".Those friends that I ate lunch with everyday. Those friends that I told a lot, not all, my secrets. Those friends who see me at school and walk past without saying "HI!". The ones that are married/engaged and didn't/haven't told me. The ones who come back home, and you only realize they're here when someone asks, "You seen X since she been here??", to which I respond, "X is here??? Since when??"

Well, yes, I'm bitter!! I'm hurt. I know I probably don't play the most significant role in their lives, but gosh, is it that hard to keep in contact?? Unless they really don't want to.

Hopeless

Last week at JMMB

Well, what can I say? It was good to be here. Tho I wasn't able to do anything computer related... :S

So what does the future hold for D? School, "and all the money that thou workest shall vanish before thine eyes, and thou shalt be depressed... and poor." God i hate this. I wish I could go treat myself to a phone, a pair or two pairs of shoes... anything. I hat spending money. Anyway, school starts in about 2 weeks, and I'm just about ready to get back. Kinda sick the relationship we hav, me and UWI. It won't let me go and I don't put up a fight to get out.

This coming week, I hope, will be full of activity, I need to get all school related... stuff in order. I need to get my hair done (from like last month), I need some clothes, at least one pair of jeans. Sponsorship is accepted. If you want to call it charity, I'll take that too. :D

Monday, August 14, 2006

Hobbies

While lying in my bed, ALL DAY, I had a lot to think about.
One of the things that I spent a lot of thinking time on, was the fact that I have no hobbies. I have no passions. I have nothing that is... Danielle.
Who/what can I blame for this? Let's start with the parent people. Or should I start with church? Am I to blame as well?

I was forced to play the piano at the age of 6, and I hated it (didn't know what was good for me...). Played for 11 years… ELEVEN! And I have nothing to show for it, except for the certificates that say I’ve completed 5 grades in both practical and theory. Put me to sit in front of a piano with a score and you’d probably have to give me a few weeks before you come back to me to hear me play it... do it any justice. Wukless! There’s a piano sitting down in my dining room that hasn’t been tuned in years. Just the other day tho, I decided that I want to play… I actually want to! Not being forced or coerced, nope, doing it willingly, because I see it can be an asset. I can make money with this!! So at the moment, I’m re-learning m scales and playing old pieces that I once did in exams.

Next up, swimming. This is probably the closest thing I have to a hobby. It’s something I’ve enjoyed for years, and if I feel stressed, it’s the perfect reliever for me. I started swimming when I was about 6 (about the same time we started piano) with Aunty Jackie. Then at St. Hugh’s, I was on the swim team for 2nd and 3rd form… got tired of it after that (swim team that is). I swim nowadays when I feel like it, or as an excuse to get out the house. But it’s my intention to really get into a swimming routine, it’s the only exercise I can do, since I totally messed my back up… doctor says.

Well, I love to sleep… ongoing practice…

A more recent additions to my list of things I enjoy doing, is playing the drums. Sometimes tho, I feel like I not making any progress and get frustrated… too easily… much to Rory’s displeasure. But I will stick this one out!

I guess there are other things that I could have made better. Like singing, I love it but don’t do it often, anymore. Main reason, at church, they feel like the last minute thing goin cut it… but I put my foot down, and I guess they finally got the point. Do not come to me the day before or 2 days before you want me to sing supm and expect me to be happy and willing to do it. NAH!! New rule…gimme a weeks notice, PLEASE! I mean they used to call me every week to sing, and I’d do it, but then everybody started overdoing and taking advantage of it. NO!

Ok, this getting long, so let’s go to the possible reasons for me not having a proper hobby. The parents barely give me enough room to develop anything that I’d be interested in. Take pan for example, they simply don’t support it… or me. *sigh*
Another factor is church, Sabbath. Most activities that I had interest in when I was younger had class/training on Saturdays… so that just wasn’t gonna happen.

But one of the biggest limiting forces is me. Nowadays, I’m just lazy. I’m quite content chilling with my friends and kicking it, watching tv or just… chilling. So I dint drive myself to do anything that would take any significant amount of energy.
I used to blame my mother for me being fat, or having my belly. Because we were never really involved in any physical activities, like dancing (God forbid the church people know), or track, tennis, badminton … you get where I’m going.
But I can’t blame her anymore, even if I could before. I have the power to go play any sport I want to now. I guess I can blame them for not encouraging the “interest development” earlier, when I was younger.

So whats the plan? Develop a hobby… duh… not sure what quite yet. I want to do everything. No narrowing down just yet. Swimming definitely, drums… yup. PIANO – I am determined!
Other interests developing – art (drawing, painting), photography… long list. Considering going to art school. But considering the current monetary constraints… not right now.

Monday, August 07, 2006

I just don't like you!!

Ever met somebody and just get a bad vibe from him/her?? Well, I really can't say I have. Really!!

I think I've made it my duty to give everyone I've met, a fair chance to prove themself worthy of my... well, of knowing me :D... LOL!
But really, it's very hard for me to be disgusted by someone. That being said, if I do get disgusted, well, I'm REALLY disgusted. There's no coming back!

This came up when I was talking to Rory about the phrase "Mi spirit nuh tek to him!", and getting him to explain it. He says there are some people that are so totally opposite, that they will not be able to get along, no matter what. Like destiny almost (supm to that effect). Like in prep school, "everyone has an enemy". That person that you see from the first day, and just know that there's going to be some kind of altercation down the road.

I didn't agree. I think that there are going to be people in our lives that are just going to "get on our wrong side", annoy you till you want to hurt yourself, or them (more than likely them).
Thinking about it now, maybe I was always that person that did the annoying... maybe that's why I never experienced the ... this.